Ahem...sorry for the quite short update (which also took a lot of time to get ready ). The next one will be faster!


Dear Diary,

My grandparents are nutters! They really are! You won’t believe what I’m going to tell you!!! But, let’s leave the juiciest gossip for the end…let me tell you first about my school week. Yeah, can you believe how time flies? It’s already been a week since I began highschool …
Well, Regina’s still a b*tch ...which makes me despise me even more! She always kisses Brandon passionately in public! That makes me sooo mad!



I became quite good friends with Holly. She really is a nice person. I haven’t heard her bad mouth anyone, even though I can see people snickering behind her back, pointing and laughing. I’m positive she can see all this, but she pretends she doesn’t. I’m sure it hurts her badly…poor girl!



But this doesn’t stop her from being nice to everyone around her. She definitely hasn’t deceived my expectations!
Little Marissa on the other hand, has proved to be a real b*tch…just like Regina! Can you believe how low some people would sink just to make others like them? This is Marissa … she considers that making fun of Holly and laughing at her is going to instantly make her popular and Regina’s best friend. She makes me sick! I really thought she was going to be a sweet kid, but she turned out like this…it’s a pity!



Still, I’m not the only one being upset by the mean things said and done in this class. Ramona is always sad when she sees Marissa and Regina acting the way they do. It’s nice to see that a beautiful, popular kid can also be reasonable and not act like all b*tchy children, as though the world belongs to them and it is their right to make fun of people they consider inferior.



This attitude bugs me a lot. It isn’t those people's fault that they are born with hormonal problems that make them gain a lot of weight, it’s not their fault that they’re not born looking like supermodels…

I’d like to make Holly open up to me, because I could help her gain some more self respect. She isn’t ugly like she thinks and like the people around her make her feel. She’s just a little chubby, that’s all! Still, whenever I bring up the subject, she suddenly starts to pay attention to something else and pretends she hadn’t heard me.



I can understand though. We’ve only known eachother for one week, so it would be weird for her to start blabbering out all her fears, hopes and all her thoughts. I’ll just give her some time…

“The weird kid”, Sebastien is definitely a loner…he hadn’t talked to anyone yet. He doesn't seem to have any friends, and he sure acts like he doesn't need any. During classes, he just sits there at his desk, I’m sure his mind is somewhere far, far away from his vacant expression.



He only answers with monosilabic words when being asked something, sometimes even by the teachers. I wonder why he’s so lonely…he always disappears during breaks. I’ve got no idea where he goes, to be quite honest. Probably somewhere where he can be all alone.

Oh, and something new about me! I have recently realised how much I love painting. It calms me and helps me disconnect from the world. It feels so good!



I thinks my soul’s “wounds” are slowly beginning to heal…I have just started to realise the truth about death. Until now I have hoped that a miracle would happen and I would wake up some day and mom, dad, my brothers and my sister will all be there. This is not going to happen. Ever. It’s not like I have some kind of weird phone to call the Grim Reaper for their souls…This feeling, that there’s no chance to have my family back, hurts like he11, but I know I will feel better after realising my situation!

Oh, I have to go, diary! Grandma is calling me down for dinner! Guess I’ll have to share the juicy gossip later with you… :P

Love,
Shadee xx

And a cliffe for you my dears! I'm feeling evil right now! :trix: Then again I sure hope to be able to finish the next chappie sooner, so you'll eventually find out the thing about Shadee's grandparents... Meanwhile, y'all know how much I love and appreciate feedback